The past couple of weeks have been really stressful. Dealing with the emotions of my Mom's cancer has been really tough. I know that God can heal her and I pray that He will. It's so hard to be strong and have faith when the doctors are not offering any encouragement to her at all. Molly and Betsy came to visit a week ago Sunday. We had a really sweet visit with Dad and Mom on Monday evening. Then on Tuesday Mom started radiation and chemotherapy. Wednesday was Molly's birthday and we planned to take her out to celebrate her birthday. Early that morning Mom had another bad seizure. They took her to Muncie to the hospital and she was in the emergency room until 4 p.m. Finally at 7:30 they got nausea medicine to help her...she just kept saying "I feel so sick." It was so painful to see her suffer so much. Then Wednesday night my 2 sisters and one of my brothers stayed with her so Dad could go home to sleep. They said she was asleep and snoring so they stepped out of the room to talk so they wouldn't disturb Mom. They heard a crash and she had gotten out on the window side of the bed and fallen. She landed flat on the right side of her face. They rushed her to a CAT scan and thankfully nothing was broken. But her poor face...it was swollen to twice the size and purple from her eyebrow to her neck and her eye was swollen shut. I felt so sorry for her and for my siblings too...they all blamed themselves. The doctors believe the Dilantin level was too low and allowed her to have the seizure. So she got to go home Saturday and started back on radiation treatments today. We stayed with her yesterday. She was weak but able to walk with an arm to lean on. After she took her chemo drugs she began to feel sick. I just pray that the treatment isn't worse than the illness itself. Molly wrote on her blog a wonderful description of how we all feel about Mom and her suffering. John and I started a Bible study with our small group tonight. We were studying about finding joy through suffering. It was really what we needed to hear and reinforced what we already knew...that God is in control and He allows these trials for a higher purpose. We may not know why until we get to heaven, but we have faith that He is walking through this with us.